Thinking

Sooooo...i must admit i did something weiiiird tonight. I was feeling...._________ ever since you left or more i left...WELL SINCE I HAD TO GO.

I'm trying to sort out all these feelings, ideas and poop, which contaminate my mind.

ANYWAYS onto what i did....

I google searched what to do, couldn't find anything and eventually looked at what you might be typing.

Girlfriend is losing interest in me.
She is spending less time with me...etc...

And obviously when it came from the Boys point of view it was all these girls saying they deserved better. But maybe its cause they don't understand how she feels.

Let me tell you how I feel:

- Like I need to give you all the energy and time I have (though i do like to)
- Like you expect too much
- I wish you would try to make an effort to communicate with other people because even though you'll always have me sometimes we need short times apart...THIS leads into my next point
- We spend too much time together, maybe this is why we have not as many things to talk about, since i know all about your past now and also everything in your present.

I think that's it, i cant think of much else. But this doesn't mean i want to push you away, its far from it. AND IN ENGLISH. it seems every english class ends up in pain...for BOTH OF US. MAKE CONVERSATION WITH ME. I BEG OF YOU, i can't always initiate it.

AND NOW discussing your point about me not being interested in you...

I am. It's as simple as that. TO the point about me not showing it, you are wrong too. IN ENGLISH...first of all, i do try and talk, then you look away or don't continue conversation and every other time youre already just upset. I wish you would talk to me before this all snowballs, cause i can't handle it.

This is my first relationship and I don't know the to do's and don'ts. I rely on stupid biased internet stuff... I need you to be more forward and step up and become stronger, cause i know you can.

ANYWAYS, i looove you, talk to you soon,

Yours always,
Tilbooo